6 weeks ago...

Six weeks ago I weighed 245... this week 233... I have lost 12 lbs in 6 weeks.... I haven't been able to loose weight like that in forever... Growing up and into my teens I weighed maybe 125lbs on a good day... After high school and because I was dumb I let the weight pack on... 13 years later I am going to get myself back into the shape I once was... I will be happy to get my happy fat ass down to about 160lbs... I don't need to be the stick figure who looked like she was starving herself to death but I want to loose the weight so I can start feeling better about myself again... My eating habits are so much better... no more snacking for me after a certain time of night... I eat breakfast every day... HEALTHY snacks during the work hours... (No more crap going into this body)... I eat a nice dinner or if we eat out I stick to something that is good for me... ie salads, chicken, veggies... I'm so proud of myself for doing this because I know its never to late to help yourself...

I go to the gym about every other day and spend an 45-60 minutes working my fat butt out... Its enjoyable to kick start my day by doing 30 minutes on the elipitcal (i know I spelled it wrong) and 15-20 on the treadmill... I also am going to start "shredding" with Jillian Micheals... I watched the video a little bit and I was like damn she does work you out hard in this video... With Shredding and my workout in the mornings I will start to see some results... hell I can tell something is going well when I don't get winded walking up and down the stairs at work...

I'm excited for myself and for the future...

Later Days

Boredom and other things

This time next week I will be back in the homeland... seeing old sights, friends and my family... I'm excited about my pending trip... I'm excited becuase its been 3 years since my last visit there are some of the nephews and nieces I haven't even met yet and that is even more exciting!

I'm even more excited to just be able to hold that sweet baby boy... I can't wait to cuddle and love him!

6 more days!

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BABIES GALORE!

Heading back to the homeland come December to see my new nephew!!!! I'm so excited to see this little guy that I kinda have a countdown in my head... as of tomorrow it will be 2 months exactly that I leave... I will only be there for a week but I'm ok with that...

May 6th is my little brother's wifes due date... She is 10 weeks 6 days pregnant!! I have to admit I wasn't all that pleased with this one but the thought of another niece or nephew is wonderful!! She is just well I'm not sure if she is all there... but I haven't really full blown met her yet so we will see...

Ahhh babies... sooo exciting!

UGH!

So I have some friends who are living on the system... The husband has been one of my friends since 1992... we went to high school together and have remained friends... I'm so disgusted by him and his wife right now because they are going to Las Vegas for a whole week... They bitch and bitch about not having ANY money but yet here they are going to f-ing vegas... Not to mention but they have 3 kids they are dumping on g-ma for the whole week... WHAT TEH FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?????

The wife only works part time while going to school and he is not working at all but going to school... The tax payers in my home town are supporting them to go to school, take care of their kids for them but yet THEY ARE GOING TO VEGAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm just so irritated at that... Yes there is more to the story but I just had to let this out since I'm so angry with them right now!

so yeah

Tomorrow my little sis goes to the doc to see what is up and how far along she is. Its at 7:30 est. I told her no matter what she needs to call me as soon as she gets out... I know its only going to be like 6:00 MST but I don't care... Inquiring minds need to know!

I'm trying not to get to excited yet because you never know what is going to happen but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything and I MEAN EVERYTHING goes all right for her the next 8-9 months... I'm sure it will but with what happened to me last year I just don't want to be disappointed... I love my little sister and I just wish I could be by her side. I hate the fact I'm not back in Ohio to take care of her and help her out... Living 1200 miles away freaking sucks. But I hope to be able to be there for the delivery... I want to be there when my new niece or nephew comes into this world. I NEED TO BE THERE!

that is all
later days

nothing matters but to stick by her side

I've been in a state of shock for the past couple of hours now. As much as I am happy for her I am also a little afraid for her to. I know I can't change the past but I know I can help her change her future.

No matter what I will stand by her side and help her along on this journey. I will stay positive for her and help her move along as much as she needs it. I will always forever be true to her and make sure she overcomes all of this.

I will be damned if anyone stands in her way.

Later days

my sister

My little sister called me today. I knew something was up since she never calls me in the middle of the afternoon. She is pregnant. She is 21. She is having a baby with a guy that no one in my family likes. He is a jerk, asshat, asshole, jackass, mother fucker, and about every other in the book.

I'm not happy. not happy at all.

I know she is 21 and a grown up but I'm still not happy.

grumpily yours
Living

i'm going to do it!

Ok... I need to start writing and actually posting here...

but what if I don't have anything to write about well shit I could make things up but that isn't fair to me because well I can't make shit up... so what should I do?

I could write some stories about my family because they are a funny group of people...

I suck at writing to be honest... I have all these ideas in my head but to write them down its impossible... I read so many people's blogs and they rock... the words flow so easily... I wish I had that... but I can sit at the computer for 15 minutes or so and not think of a damn thing... but then late at night when I'm trying to fall asleep all the ideas just start to flow and then I'm thinking about them and then I can't fall asleep...

so I'm at work today... its snowing (I live in colorado) and we are supposed to get anywhere from 8inches to a foot of snow... wonderful... good thing I have my 4 wheel drive vehicle... you kinda need one living here in the wonderful state of colorado... without one your pretty much screwed... unless you are smart and you get actual snow tires then you are fine... what is even funnier is when people who have never driven in the snow get all stupid and find themselves in a ditch... MORONS!!!!!!

so yeah... I'm stuck at work today while my son and husband are sitting at home nice and warm with some hot chocalate... mmmm hot chocalate sounds good... I think I have some here in the office...

later days all