Friday, October 22, 2010

tired...

I started working out again... I have to get myself back to the way I used to be... I know that I won't be back to the weight I once was back in high school... but I want to be able to feel good again! 2 weeks now have passed and I'm starting to feel better knowing that I'm pushing myself to do this... I'm not expecting it to happen overnight but I just hope I can keep it up... I have to...

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

seriously

My irritation level is beyond my limits... why do my brothers have to marry such dumbassess???? Ok only 2 of my brothers married dumbassess luckily the others have married very awesome people but the younger brothers how dumb can you be?????

Situation is like this: little brother is in Marines... he has a step son and a daughter and is married to a dumbass who seems to think that money grows on trees... she claims she thought she paid the insurance but in return she really didn't most likely because she wanted to make sure she had money to come out and visit us here in CO... now see here my little brother lives in base housing so he doesn't have rent/gas/electric/water to pay the only bills he has are car payment/insurance for said car/payment on washer and dryer/cable/phone and well that is about it... the car payment and payment on washer and dryer comes out of his check before he even sees it... so a month that leaves him with about 1900 a month roughly 950 a paycheck... car insurance is roughly about 150 a month phone 100 and cable about 100... so that would leave someone who has about 1900 a month coming in after taxes and such about 1550 right... on top of the bills you have to grab groceries right so that leaves someone who has to feed 3 people (daughter is only on formula/baby food) about 400 a month... so that leaves 1150 left... with a baby you have to have formula/diapers and baby food so there goes about 400 more a month that leaves you with about 750 left.. then you have gas for your car for the week it would be roughly about 55 for the truck they drive so there goes another 250 a month so now you are down to 500 leftover for the month... so wehre is your money going???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

now what do I do... do I be the nice big sister and help them out yet again??? or do I tell them no... UGH... I hate being in this prediciment!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

irritated with stupidness

I swear to the high heavens that people who are dumb and stupid should just go away... I'm irritated right now with stupid people in this office... sometimes I wonder if maybe I need to get a new job and leave this stupidness behind...

that is all
later days

Monday, January 4, 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Its hard to believe that 2009 is over... Nothing really exciting happened in 2009 with the exception of my new nephew! I went to Ohio to visit that little man and had so much fun! Visting with my little sister and her BF and her new little one was the best...

I know I wrote about how much I hated her BF and what a jerk he was but spending that week with him I swear he is a changed man... The way he was with my little sister and his son was the best thing in the world... It was like whatever happened in the past is in the past and he is looking forward to his future with his son and my sister... He is gearing towards finishing his GED and then in February he will be taking classes to become a CNA... He is excited about doing this and can't wait to get started...

I also was able to spend some individual time with my other 2 sisters and that was alot of fun as well... I think because I had so much fun it was hard to get back into the groove in the real world... As much as I miss my family I know that my choice to move was the best for me... I love my life out in CO so much more... The atmosphere in my old town of Ohio is not what I want anymore... I swear people are more depressed out there due to the economy and the downfall of businesses there... Driving along the streets of that town and seeing empty buildings that just 5 years ago were booming with business is depressing... People make due out there but its still makes me feel helpless for my family that still lives there... I guess that I want so much more for myself and my own family that seeing all the dismal of my old town makes me appreciate what I have here in CO so much more...

But overall my trip back to Ohio was indeed a success... Seeing my nieces and nephews is always a treat... Each one of them are unique individuals and each of them has a personality that is such a treasure... I miss them all so very much and already I have been checking ticket prices for this summer to go visit again...

Later days