Friday, November 28, 2008

defeat...

I don't like seeing someone who is my rock break down... Seeing my friend this afternoon and watching him cry in my arms was the worst feeling in the world... As I held him in my arms I whispered words of encouragement hoping they would help him... I know in time his pain will heal but forever Thanksgiving will bring a whole new meaning to him...

Little S... you were loved for those few precious hours by your mommy and daddy and they both loved you so much... I didn't get to meet you but I loved you too... Even with the short time you were on this earth with us you made an impact that will forever live on in our hearts...

SJY thank you for being born...

seriously

yeah seriously

Friends are like Family

working in a small office with only 10 people brings you pretty close to one another don't you agree... The people you work with become family... You argue like family, laugh with each other like family and when something horrible happens to one of them you stand by them and help them along... I received some of the greatest news last night about one of my co-workers only to hear some of the worst news this morning about the great news.. I'm sad, angry and I honestly want to know why... I have been catching myself thinking about what happened and start to break out in tears...I'm hoping with writing this I can settle down a bit and go to sleep... Out of the privacy of my co-worker I'm not going to blog about what happened but I just needed to vent a bit so that its not bottled up in my head preventing me from sleep...Like I said I'm sad... I'm angry... Why do bad things happen to good people? Seriously why... I just want to know why... So if someone could tell me why I would appreciate it...

later days


PS... I hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving... Give thanks to the ones you love and hold them close to you....

Monday, August 25, 2008

been awhile...

The past couple of weeks have been pretty bad... Finding out I was pregnant was a wonderful thing that I was soooo excited about... well on our first ultrasound they saw the sac but no baby... meaning one of two things... either I was in the middle of a miscarriage or I was just not as far along as I thought...

well turned out I was having a miscarriage... it sucked I was sad, angry and just mad... after a long talk with the husband we decided that going in for a D&C was the best option... clean me out and go from there... and then after another long and lengthy talk we decided to not have any more kids... We have our wonderful 7 year old who makes us laugh, cry and something get angry with and that is all we need... The hubby went in this past Friday to have the wonderful snip snip treatment...

People ask if we made this decision to soon but I don't think so.... As my husband told me your health is much to important to me than having another baby.... I have diabetes and the risk of being pregnant and the complications from that result makes me really glad that we decided to not have any more... I did not have diabetes when I had my son... I got this back in 2004...

but life is life and we are happy...

later days

Friday, July 11, 2008

excited!

I just recently found out that I am pregnant!!! Looks like I am due in feb but that of course is a guesstimate! I am going to the OB on July 22nd for my first appointment!!! The boy is excited to be a big brother and husband is besides himself! But all in all we are very very excited!

So far I have been feeling very tired. No morning sickness at all which is a good thing just plain ol' tired! Last night I slept from 6:00-9:00 woke up for a little bit then went back to sleep at 10:30ish... but man my dreams are just bizarre lately... it kinda freaks me out like last night I had a dream that my cat was stuck to my face and he wouldn't get off... I woke up and of course the cat was right near my head... I had to kick him out of my room...

time to get back to work...

Later Days

Friday, June 27, 2008

first blog

NOt really new to this have other blogs but couldn't remember the one I used to use... so I started a new one once again... Life has its ups and downs and everything in between... born and raised in ohio moved to Colorado 5 years ago... have a kid a husband a dog and a gay jewish cat... will be writing about my life as I know it...

later days