so yeah

Tomorrow my little sis goes to the doc to see what is up and how far along she is. Its at 7:30 est. I told her no matter what she needs to call me as soon as she gets out... I know its only going to be like 6:00 MST but I don't care... Inquiring minds need to know!

I'm trying not to get to excited yet because you never know what is going to happen but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything and I MEAN EVERYTHING goes all right for her the next 8-9 months... I'm sure it will but with what happened to me last year I just don't want to be disappointed... I love my little sister and I just wish I could be by her side. I hate the fact I'm not back in Ohio to take care of her and help her out... Living 1200 miles away freaking sucks. But I hope to be able to be there for the delivery... I want to be there when my new niece or nephew comes into this world. I NEED TO BE THERE!

that is all
later days

nothing matters but to stick by her side

I've been in a state of shock for the past couple of hours now. As much as I am happy for her I am also a little afraid for her to. I know I can't change the past but I know I can help her change her future.

No matter what I will stand by her side and help her along on this journey. I will stay positive for her and help her move along as much as she needs it. I will always forever be true to her and make sure she overcomes all of this.

I will be damned if anyone stands in her way.

Later days

my sister

My little sister called me today. I knew something was up since she never calls me in the middle of the afternoon. She is pregnant. She is 21. She is having a baby with a guy that no one in my family likes. He is a jerk, asshat, asshole, jackass, mother fucker, and about every other in the book.

I'm not happy. not happy at all.

I know she is 21 and a grown up but I'm still not happy.

grumpily yours
Living